I ran from you, now I run to you

Hot tears, flushed cheeks, adrenaline takes over I push off the last step. I take two steps at a time now. I reach the landing one more flight and I'm there. My face hits the orange carpet and blood spills from my nose I kick out and push off the step again.

 

The last crazy one

" Before there was Johnny V there was the man who gave me my straight up realisation smack. The guy who made me see how addicted to the wrong men I really am. His name was Brian Lowes "

August, September 2008
 

Let the right one in

(...Continued from the pink room)
"We're working backwards and that's okay,right? I think. because last saturday I was working backwards too. It was some sort of magnetism. I was damaging myself just by standing in that park. I had damaged myself by looking at the park on google maps. Why was I stupid enough to thing I could handle this shit?
 

In the pink room

I strike a match to light a marlboro red.. they're too strong but they're all I have so I offer one to Hayley. I tell her that I never smoke alone so she has to share the joy.

It's been two days since I last saw her "where have you been?" I ask... "I've been around sometimes I'm just quieter".

I have to fill in the two day blank so here it is:

Hayley klien, the usually stable girl went to find the scene of the crime: Jablonski C's house in the middle of the saturday night. She searched for two hours, going from estate to estate... getting nowhere. And then!!!!

"This place!"

The One Night Stand: Freak in the sheets.

                        

In the midst of the serious things in life funny things happen. Normal things happen. The world still spins. People still flirt, smile, fuck and burn.
Then night after she met Johnny V and Jablonski C she dabbled in gaining back control. Johnny V had made her feel like she was now his possession with texts like "we should keep this quiet, what we have, our own dirty little secret" .

Is it time to.....

You'd be amazed at the effects a cigarette can have.

Two days ago, between the hours of 12:50 and 18:10 Hayley Klien spoke with the strong female representative Sassy Strongbow and her less conversationally opinionated sidekick Karlie Nosh. While in the safety of this "no notes taken: EVER" room all information pertaining to the acts that took place on friday the 4th of June were discussed. The rights, the wrongs and the parts that were so sad they were laughable.

What was their take on Johnny V?!

Either tomorrow is the end, or it's the beginning of a whole new problem

"Me and him live in two different worlds. I live in the world where, I hope, i try to do the best I can. I listen and the word no means no straight away. When the letters are placed in the right formation and flow slowly or rapidly from your lips, whether you're spitting them at someone or playfully shoving someone, often you're saying the word No. His world is dirty, lacklustre. His world lacks colour, innocence and all the subtleties that makes someone stable fall in love. 

He is someone I would describe as beneath me. He is a boy who strives to be someone important but can't find the way. He pleads with everyone to like him and walks all over those who give him a chance because out of all 6,827,519,257 people, in the world at 00:46 UTC Jun 16, 2010, i am the one who is left with his damage. 

The girl with the questionable morals?

"I dream alot, the dreams bring cold sweats and laughing men... they have been laughing at me every night for a week."

If you want to know how you feel about yourself just check in with your dreams. Hayley does.

"Most nights I just accept that when I fall asleep, which I don't want to they are going to be there, every man I've ever met that ever made me feel bad. All the men I dated and wronged and all the men in the middle that could be seen as HUUUUGE MISTAKES. This dream effected me more than usual, this dream was about what's going to happen... if I report it you see. My fears are realistic . These are the facts: some people will think it's an exaggeration, some will think it's lies, what if people shout at me in the street?!I don't know how to feel."

Hayley's always with me now, in one way or another.

The first blush

"This is the only time in my life that I'm going to be upset about healing to quickly" Hayley told me.

Let's skip the boring stuff and get back to the story.
Me and Hayley back together.

You have informally been introduced to Johnny V and Jablonski C, unfortunately a formal introduction seems improbable due to the fact that they would have to agree to being awful, unintellegent life forms who deserve to be taken to a shed and have their testicles removed and their wounds sprayed with insecticide, wich as I said is improbable!

I was watching the fight

“ I made a mistake with him but will I stop making that mistake? What makes a normal, relatively stable girl shake it all up for a boy she hates??”



well we’ve been here before Hayley haven’t we?


“everytime it’s safe you mess it up, you love the danger, the fear that you do not know who you are.”


Let’s call him JOHNNY V.


well, Johnny V had an obsession, he also had a problem, he also had selective deafness. He boxed to this years love courtesy of David Grey he hadn’t yet joined the human race revolution. He was raised as some sort of You Porn product.

An introduction...